I feel like i need to do something

Waiting is what i hate most.

again with angst i conclude a process that torments even the strongest of souls. I cast aside my biases and use photo-phone communication to begin a ship that in good time will sail the sea.  Here’s hoping for a better morning, a better evening, and a bed of dreaming.  Good night to the gremlin head, good night to the head of dead, good night good night, I SAID GOODNIGHT!

after recent return from my highly anticipated mini vacation i find myself alone in bed. i find myself alone in bed wondering why such horrid, little, goatish trolls run through the streets of my ever existing life.  after my departure, i wish one day to return to the very streets where they defecate to slowly extract the ounces of life they have managed to hold onto so dearly. the things i reference will not only be encrypted, but stay the way they are until life itself comes withering down by seam.  the decisions made previously will also fall under the same hand that smashes options b and c maybe d or e and so on and so forth.  while the sense i make is little to you now, i hope that in time you too will realize what writes itself on these electronic pages.

-FOR NOW-

I go about my life looking for individuals to love, but only find ones that refuse to return the feeling due to selfish and unmotivated reason.  In recent study I’ve learned that neither disappearance nor public persistence have smiling outcomes, but leave you rather ill hearted and a bit confused.  Based on previousness, i have decided to wrap my arms wholly around the very personality that causes me pain. The next few months will consist of me and me only; completely enveloping my exterior with a palpable form of self that focuses on nothing but its being. Heres to all of you that think less of yourselves and more of me to focus on something so conceited that priorities do nothing but throw themselves off the highest of cliffs. Pay close attention young pandas this beginning will be nothing short. good luck to me and not to you!